The Phenomenon I don't understand.

Monday, 30 November 2015

Dear Diary

1.      Today something very awkward happened today, we had to group study and I went to ask a group that if I could join them. You know what I got for an answer, they said that I was too smart to join them. I was baffled! I ended up sitting alone and studying but I found that being smart also has its drawbacks, which I thought weren’t there. I don’t mean to say that I am the smartest kid in my class but yeah I didn’t expect to hear such an answer.

2.      Today I started playing a game which I hadn’t played in a while: Asphalt 8 Airborne. I love this game very much because it kinda fits into me. I told you I am a lot into cars and that stuff so basically I love racing.

3.      As I was talking about drawbacks, another one of winter is that Its very snowy in here so I cannot bike which is one of my favourite sport.

4.      So now what do I do, I just keep thinking about what to write in my blog, it has kind of become a way of my life and I like it because I get to write my feelings somewhere, otherwise imagine yourself in between a desert with nobody and nothing, how would you feel, I would certainly feel depressed because it’s a human nature to socialize, to interact, to be friends with people.

5.      One thing I don’t understand about this world is that when you read the biographies and autobiographies of great people they all were born in a poor or mediocre family. For example I was reading about Thomas Alva Edison known by all as ‘Genius’.He was the son of a U.S refugee who had taken part in the Mackenzie War of 1837. Now if you read about him you see that he was relatively poor but in his whole lifetime he had done so much work that he has 1093 U.S. patents in his name. Another great example is the 16^th President of the United States, Abraham Lincoln. He was also born very poor in Kentucky. He suffered the most setbacks in his life than anyone else I know but still is regarded as one of three best presidents of the U.S. He suffered the loss of three sons out of four, which took Lincoln into melancholy and his wife later after Lincoln died was admitted to the mental asylum.

6.      Still leaving all of that behind he became a great President. I never understood this phenomenon of the great people being poor at first. Well looks like I might be a great person according to my graphs of ‘the phenomenon I don’t understand’. J

The second day

Sunday, 29 November 2015

Dear Diary

                  They say that the best time to grow a tree was twenty years back, well it's only my second day on my 20 year long journey. I sometimes sit alone in my recess at school and ponder about innovative ideas like how to create a mini engine to power a small model plane and make it fly. I only get ideas when I am at the right spot of thinking for example ( it's a very humorous one for me and by the way I solved my first mirror cube while sitting on it) the commode, some people get it while daydreaming, others get it while they are in silence, etc. You know while sleeping today I realized something, just try remembering a scene from your life doesn’t matter its old or new. Now when you do that you can remember what happened nicely but take a closer look at the recording as it plays in your mind don’t you see the picture getting fuzzy just like it was back in the old days when the T.V. antenna didn’t pick the radio waves on the channel. I first thought that it was just lack of my concentration but when I tried harder to concentrate it didn’t improve at all. I was shocked! I wondered why didn’t it work. I discussed it with my mom and then I shortlisted it to two possible reasons. Maybe it is because this world isn’t real. Everything we see, feel, hear isn’t real at all. It's just a simulator and what isn’t real we can’t reproduce a copy of it in our brain as clear as it was. Maybe its because we only control 10% of or brain and we may need the whole brain to make the picture clear in our mind. Its very confusing for me. They also say that if you can control upto 85% of your brain you can also predict the future. Which makes me very excited as it would be awesome to know somebody’s next move. Well for now its all thumbs up for me. Next stop: STARDOM.

The first day of the tree

Saturday, 28 November 2015

Dear Diary

             Today was a very boring day and I was kind of tired. I feel that my cousin is sometimes kind of repulsive towards me but I don’ tell anyone. I feel that what’s the use of telling, I have done that a lot of times and it only makes the victim hate you more. I don’t understand what’s happening to me. Its kind of a strange country to me and a few days back I was not able to understand what to do. In India it was way more casual about friendship, over here the studies are way more relaxed but moral values are most looked into. Friendship over here are made on moral values not on how cool you are. I don’t understand why I keep wasting my time on cheating myself, I sometimes like keep these khan academy and duolingo as a cover for what I am doing, and I don’t get what I am doing it for, is it to get entertainment time or am I being greedy. Its hard on me to keep moving from on place  to place because it is hard to make good friends in this country.  But to tell you the truth I just have the capacity for two more moves. Nowadays mom thinks that I don’t spend enough time speaking with her, I think that’s kind of true because I am getting attracted to all useless stuff and not concentrate on important studies. Mom also thinks that I am getting lean because of not eating well, and that’s true because I lost about 1 and a half kg of weight. Right now I am at 40.8 kg from 42.5 kg. I don’t know why that is happening, the only reason I can think is that I am not taking a good diet. In the time I get bored I read about futuristic vehicles like tesla model s, toyota mirai etc. I have a few friends but the first time I went on a kind of  play date was when I met one of my friend, thomas near the lake and biked with him but I ended up injuring my finger badly and that kind of sucked. But still I need to focus on what I do and deserve, not on what I want. Oh and one more thing I have a new home and new start to make, so lets get rolling.